mengarut2...
Monday, February 28
huhu..esok ade presentation..xsuke..lgpon xreti..ehehe..kalu nk kena present jek nnt cuak..hahah..:)) teruk tol aku nih..
erm....anyway...12 march nnt...gi prom!! yeayy...da beli da dress...kasar belanje..huhu..heels x beli lg nih..abes da duit..pasnih kena berjimat2 sket..:p gi prom ngan my sayang..muah2..ehehe..
owh..yati(my cousin) skang ni da ade boipren....uhuh..kitorang nih cam lebih kurang jek..perangai lebih kurang..cuma dier nih brutal lg..rupe nk kate same tuh x arr..tp ade gak org yg kate kitorang kembar..yg mmg ntah camner mata diorang xtau arr..maybe sbb putih same kott...persamaan mmg banyak ar ngan dier nih..lgpon kitorang mmg rapat...sebaya pon...ehehe..da tuh..cara kitorang dpt boipren pon lebih kurang ar plak..huhu..cam aku ngan anas gak...mamat tuh dlu same kelas ngan dier..satu skolah..pastuh da cam 4 tahun x contact lgsg..pastuh budak tuh arr..yg contact cousin aku nih..erm..tp yg lain sket..dlu diorang nih penah kapel..huhu..aku ngan anas x penah...kenal ngan anas pon camtuh2 jek..tp tuh ar..dier dlu masa form 3 yg aku dengar2 dier da ade awek...dak kelas sebelah..so cam xmo ar kaco kan..usha2 jek arr..:p ehehe...
rindu kat anas...huhu...padahal baru jek jumpe..:p ehehe...arituh...da buat peraturan baru ntuk dier..berkuat kuasa serta merta..ehehe...dier kena jumpe aku minimum sekali seminggu...lebih x per..kurang xley..hahaah...:)) kena tambah sket lg kot nnt..no excuses..unless ade mc..xpon kena wat surat...hahaha..:)) ngarut jek..:p uhuh...cakap pasal surat...x buat lg email kasi kat may chan..huhu..lupe..nnt2 ar..xpe kot..lek lek...huhu...
uh malam nih ade discussion lak..huhu..da ar citer tu da last plak ar arinih..huhu....:( xley nk tgk..huhu..ampes...uh..ngantuk nyer...
...loving you...
[5:19 PM]
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anas ku...huhu
Sunday, February 20
ape jek nk cite..uhuh..keyboard nih bingun arr plak...spacebar dier kena tekan kekuat..ishh...kat umah skang nih..eheh..esok kang balik..:p mengadee..eheh...
erm...umah kat cyber tuh skang cam da sunyi...x cam dlu..sume pon da buat keja memasing...xcam dlu da...sunyi jek rase nyer...kengkadang tuh naik tensen aku..hahaha...kengkadang tuh..walaupon x sengsorang..tp rase cam sengsorang...huhuu...ade time tuh..kengkadang cam bole jadik gile jek..huhu...
dlu aku xbape kesah sgt sengsorang..cam da biase..eheh..skang nih cam xley da...huhuu...yg jadik mangsa anas arr..eheh...sian dier..:p sori wak..kalu dok sengsorang boring2 tuh kengkadang nk gak ade org temankan..ehehe..dier pon ade gak keja dier...tp tuh arr...kalu nk suruh2 pon xelok...dier pon dr shah alam tu naik motor..cam kesian gak arr...huhu...tp at times i felt like..i really need him by my side...sgt2..tp dier nih kalu nk ckp kena terang2...xreti kalu kasi hint2...tp tuh ar..aku nih plak...jenis xreti nk terang2an...huhu...tp kalu ckp pon..rasenyer dier mmg xdatang...huhu...dier akan datang biler dier nk datang...tgk ar masa dier camner..kalu dier rase dier x bz...xde keja dier dtg arr...tp ade skali arituh..dier dtg gak..kire bz gak ar kot..lgpon dier skang cam kena cope up balik ngan ape sume studies tuh..sbb cuti sakit arituh...huhu..sayang awk!muaahhh...
pasnih nk sambung wat esemen MAYA...huhu...tp cam ngantuk jek..hahaah..ampes tul...:p wat keja..wat keja!! aja!aja!fighting! hahhaah....that's all folks....the end....
...loving you...
[11:10 PM]
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mood swing...uhuh..
Saturday, February 19
aiyoo..camner jek..ehehe...semalam tetiba cam jd mengarut jap..huhu...ntah arr...:p sori kepada sape yg kena semalam..huhu...:p
tp rasenyer sbb dier..cam tau jek..eheh..
erm..cam xde citer sgt skang nih..nk kena wat esemen..huhu...boring..
alaa..kunci pintu bilik da rosak plak..benda kunci tuh xley bukak..kalau terkunci kat luar kang payah plak..huhu..
tu jek ar..
...loving you...
[12:09 PM]
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quite in a good mood..but hv things that's not really that good..huhu..
Friday, February 18
hey..i got a new toy to play with..ehehe..:p
erm ape jek yek nk citer this time...otak cam tepu gak nih..rasenyer cam maybe extend lg jek..xtau arr...rase nyer..ok kot...cam org kate...biar lambat asal selamat..huhu..ntah arr..bile ar nk berubah...bukannyer xnk...da cuba..just xjadik...lepas nih kang cuba lg ar...tp rasenyer mmg kena extend ar...susah jek rase nyer...pastuh rase cam nk jaga pointer gak..kalu fail nnt mesti drop balik..uhuh..camner yek..ayah rase nyer x marah..tp tuh arr..pikir sendri arr...sampai bile nk dok kat mmu nih...da bape tahun nih..4 tahun da kat cni..ke? urmm..btol ar tuh..rugi masa....sgt rugi...skang nih pon terasa gile rugi...tp tuh arr..nk wat camner kan..? kalu da keja..bole kumpul duit..bole kawen cepat sket..hahaha..:)) gile da aku nih...ape citer ar kawen nih..:p ok ok...
owhh...sem depan nyer practical...da dpt da..tp kat KL...huhu..camner plak tuh..da tuh umah kat cyber camner..kang pas practical kalu da xde umah kat cyber nih nk dok mana? huhu..tp kalu dok gak kat cni..camner lak nk gi KL jejauh buta tuh..da arr driving pon ampes...da 2 tahun x drive...keter pon xde..hhaha...camner tuh....adoi arr..nk kena berbincang nih..uhuh..camner yek..lg satu masalah...apsal ar mmu nih pon sengal...da tulis da aku xde transport..lg kasi kat KL...uhuh...tp wuteva pon..kire bersyukur gak arr...ehehe..takut gak kalu x dpt langsung..lg susah..free2 kena drop...huhu...kalu tgk cv..mmg xde ape2..huhu...sgt arr x active..:p ntah arr..
masalah diri aku...aku nih pemalas..social skill ampes...xreti nk cakap2..in public..self-confidence...cam lg ar..xde agaknyer..huhu..absolute zero! hahaha..susah nyer...jadik kucing friskies lg besh...hari2 makan friskies..org mandikan..comb kan..pastuh tdo...menggemok!..huhu..xde ar besh sgt pon bunyi nyer...tp at least x banyak benda nk dipikirkan...huhu...ok ar tu...ngarut lg...asik ngarut jek..da jd hobi plak...ngarut kat blog...
akhir kate...i really like my new toy!!...hahahhahaha...
...loving you...
[2:09 PM]
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i think everything turn out ok..
Tuesday, February 15
erm...think our relationship back to normal..da ok balik..
td i chatted wif my fren..weeya..she brought up something..dier tanye aku..."ko sampai nk kawen ngan dier nih..sbb ape?"
erm.. aku cakap..aku xtau..aku just sayang dier..but then..weeya cakap..mesti ade sbb nyer kenapa aku sayang dier..pastuh..weeya berfalsafah sket..huhu..tp in a way..aku rase..love dun really need reasons...that's if it is a real love arr kan...xkire arr..kalu monkey love ke...keldai love ke..maybe arr..xkire pisau2 cukur..buaya darat ngan ape2 yg sewaktu dengannyer...i admit it's not really good to put your trust..full trust on that particular person..cause even ur family can sometimes betray u..jahatnyer ar sape yg buat tuh..huhu..it hurts when ppl betrayed u...but it is even more hurting when that ppl that u loved most betrayed ur trust!
bile aku ngan dier..aku rase comfortable..safe..and i'm happy when he's with me..i'll miss him when he's far...shah alam jauh per..:p ehehe..anyway i love him for whom he is..everybody have flaws in theirselves...so does he and i am also included...whatever can be changed..i guess we can always try to change it...and if it really is die hard habits or whatever...we have to learn to live with it...kat dunia nih sume pon camtuh..ngan sesape pon kite kena tolerate...x semestinyer bf ke gf je or husband n wife...ngan sume org..it's nature of life...huhu...ngan kawan..pon same gak...huhu...
so..pasal kawen nih..ehehe..aku mmg nk kawen ngan dier...and tu pon kalu jodoh aku ngan dier...kalu x..which i dun want to think about it..for now..huhu...life has to go on..whatever happened happens...huhu..ape2 jek ar aku ngarut kan kali nih...ape2 pon...anas...i really love u!
ehehe..
aku rase weeya x tau aku nyer blog nih..eheh..kalu ape2 nnt kite bincang lagi...ehehe...i'm always open for anything..:p tp ape2 pon yg aku cakap tuh just my opinion...and there no rights or wrongs kalu opinion kan...always open for arguments...ehehe..okeh..tu jek...pasnih kang nk gi GEMA...tgk org nyanyi2!huhu...tp ade kelas gak...hahahaah..:)) ikot jaja jek..gi klas..pastuh cabot!!:D
...loving you...
[7:08 PM]
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ntah ape2 jek...
Saturday, February 12
anas nih..ntah ape arr yg dier tunggu...nk tunggu i call and say i'm sorry ke..uhh...it always me doing that...ape salahnyer dier sekali sekala buat camtuh..xpenah ade effort nk pujuk..suke biar jek aku camnih..ntah ape ar yg dier buat skang...tgh hepi2 ke? ntah..huhu...xpe...lek dlu...xnak call dier lg...be strong bibah..ehehe...aja!aja!fighting!...yeah...sabo jek arr...
sumtimes..xtau ape yg dier fikir...xpaham dier nih..dier nih kengkadang cam pompuan gak pon ade...ade mood swing..hahaha..still salah ke kalu dier pujuk sekali sekala...hheehhe..xdosa pon rasenyer..nk kate xreti...erm..belaja arr..haahaha...kapel da 8 bulan...cara pujuk camtuh gak..bagi sms..yg dlu nyer.. 3 kali..ok ar kot..tp kali nih..sekali jek..tuh bukannyer improvement...hahaahaha..ampes tol..camner arr aku bole end up ngan sorang budak yg pelik camnih..not to say that i regret it...still i really luv him..ehehe..org kate love is blind..nih ar agaknye maksud nyer..when u actually go thru it..then u know...and one more thing that i realize...love hurts...really hurts..isn't it supposed to be happy...but i guess not...sbb kalu tgk cite dalam tv pon..cam drama series...bilernyer ade love yg senang...happy2..huhu..mesti ade sumthing..macam2 jadik...maybe rite now..tgh dalam phase..menderita sket...hahaaha..mengarut jek...mana tau..nnt jadik cam ending besh2...live happily ever after..hahaha..cam citer dongeng...cam ade jek camtuh..wateva...
...loving you...
[4:13 PM]
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saket paler...
uhh..sakit paler lak arinih...huhu...
wah..arituh i watched fullhouse...korean drama..dier ade satu lagu ni..besh sgt tajuk dier...Geh Deh Ji Geum by Lim Jung Hee...besh sgt lagu nih..lagu sedih arr sebenarnyer..tp besh sgt..tp xjumpe ar lyric dier..huhu...mana yek nk carik tuh...huhu
skang pon tgh dengar lagu nih..dr td pon dengar lagu nih jekk..hahaa..gile sket..
erm..arinih pon anas xbagi sms ke ape ke..suke ati dier arr..ehehe..mogok sket..tgk arr sampai mana aku ley mogok kan..hahaaha..wahhh..beshnyer lagu nih...nk nyanyi xreti..heheh..kena berusaha nih carik lyric...okeh..
erm...adoi..esemen nih..bile ar nk siap..huhu..lek lek...kena start wat nih..gile...kang last minutes..mana ade masa...test da ar banyak gile nih...satu ape pon x bace lagi..lg bole dok lepak2 kat sini..huhu..tensen2..okeh..tu je for now..eheh..:D
...loving you...
[2:13 PM]
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aarrgghh....
Friday, February 11
kenape yer orang nangis biler sedih..kenape x ketawa ke..senyum ke..kan senang...huhu..ngarut jek..ape2 jek arr...tired of waiting...waiting for him to call is like waiting for uncertainty..just one sms..and that's all..hahahaha...i dunno what to do anymore...do i hv to keep on waiting? ntah arr...
i dunno if i should start doubting..i always believed that he loves me...just like i love him..does he really loves me? or not? i dunno...i'm confused...
my fren said that i have to talk to him...but talk..phone?..i don't think that's suitable when we are talking about this kinda things..then..face to face...uhh...jumpe pon x...abes tuh..ape? duduk je bodo2 kat cni...pastu cried ur heart out..sedangkan dier...ape yg dier buat?...ntah arr..xtau pon dier buat ape...maybe tdo ke..main game ke...ape2 je arr yg dier suke...maybe he dun even think about me...maybe..i dun know..i dun asked him...i dun want to..in fact i dun want to call him at all...or should i? arrgghh....f***!!
...loving you...
[11:35 PM]
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.....
anas da x sayang aku lg da...:((
...loving you...
[1:26 AM]
___** anas(,") * (",)beba**___
huhu..
Thursday, February 10
erm..kengkadang rase cam xpenting jek bagi dier..cam watak sampingan jek kat dalam idop dier...sumone yg dun have any meaning kalau ade ke tak..camtuh ke? ntah...that's only my own feeling...x tau plak dier rase camner...
penah gak cakap kat dier...kengkadang saya rase awk cam xsayang sy jek...tp biase nyer dier cakap..jgn pk bukan2 arr...pastuh b4 letak tepon dier akan cakap "sayang awk" huhu..
xtau arr...i'm confused...ntah arr..maybe cara dier camtuh...tp camner pon..seriously..i love him so much..and it really hurts...i cried a lot lately...and i really missed him..
it's really hard being in a relationship..dlu..selalu gak sengsorang..but xde ar kesah sgt..sbb kite mmg sorang..xde sesape..tp bile ade sumone nih...when i'm alone..i always wished that he's here beside me..always..always...dah arr skang nih dak umah ni sume pon asik ngan balak jek..da xde sape da nk borak2 kalu boring2 sengsorang..xmo arr kaco2 org..rase x besh..tp kengkadang tuh belasah jek ar...bole gile..huhu...
semalam cakap kat wan bear..dier kate x elok simpan2 nih...bole jd gile nnt..huhu..btol tuh..bile simpan nih..at one point..cam nk meletop jek rase nyer..berat jek rase kepala nih..cam ade burden yg x lepas..ehehe...okeh..tu je arr..lenkali sambung lak...
...loving you...
[10:04 PM]
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arggghhhhhh....
Wednesday, February 9
uhuh..benci..benci..benci....benci anas...arrgghh....xsuke...uhh..
...loving you...
[5:31 PM]
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uhuh...
Tuesday, February 1
ermm..ape yek nk tulis kat cni..huhu..ntah arr..ehehe..
da lama xjumpe ngan member2 lama nih..wahh..rindu zaman skolah2 dlu..time tuh ar besh..belaja pon x arr susah sgt cam skang..maybe skang nih sebenarnyer sbb malas jek..haahah..dlu nk gi klas xde ar jauh sgt pon jalan..pastu mmg arr x de balik2 umah nih..straight jek..skang nih..huhu..nk kate jauh..jauh gak jalan sebenarnyer..lg ar kalu tgh hari..panas..
xsemangat tol nk gi kelas..da arr xde mamat cute ke ensem ke dalam klas..huhu...dlu time sekolah ade gak arr..yg cam bole nk usha2 sket..hahaa..:)) jap..masa form 1 ngan form 2 xde sesape..sbb kelas sume pompuan...erm..ha.tp time sejarah class combined ngan dak kelas sebelah..ade gak arr sorang mamat nih..cam cute2..eheh..semangat sket nk gi blaja sejarah..eheh..:p pastuh ade lg sorang mamat nih..masa aku form 1 dier form 2..cam ok gak arr..ape arr cite dak tuh skang..tp bukannyer minat sgt pon..saje jek suke usha..ehehe..i'm normal ok..ape salah nyer nk usha dak laki..x salah kan? :p then form 3..kat maahad..erm..ade 2 org..aku suke usha gak..sorang tuh sekelas ngan aku..sorg lg dak klas sebelah..dak tu same tuition ngan aku..yg seklas ngan aku tuh..walaupon sekelas..tp aku x penah bertego sape pon ngan dier..aku dlu member ngan dak pompuan jek..tp ade arr gak occasion2 yg dier tego aku sekali dua..aku x tau sgt ar sbb ape aku suke usha mamat nih..cam cute gak arr..tp rambut dier lawa arr..straight..pastuh cam panjang gak arr..for budak skolah..ehehe..sbb sekelas mmg arr...time cikgu ngajar pon aku dok usha2 lg..hahaha..kirenye seat aku ngan dier..buatkan senang nk usha arr..aku dok 2nd row depan kat 2nd column from kanan...dier dok rase nyer..kalu x salah..2nd row from back..kt tepi tingkap belah kiri..huhu..xsure sgt..tp mamat nih..dlu aku dengar dier cam da ade awek sume..tu arr malas sket nk kaco2..tp..aku rase..time tuh..aku mmg xkan kaco dak2 laki nih..hahaha...xbiase..maybe sbb 2 tahun aku klas ngan dak pompuan jek..so cam ntah arr..
lg sorang dak kelas sebelah tuh...muke cam cine2 sket..putih..x usha sgt ar..kelas lain pon..kat tuition cam kengkadang..ehehe..pastuh..form 4 plak...wah..sir taekwondo aku..nama dier beh chai chong...ensem tuh..rambut seriyes..cun giler...straight..quite long..comel pon ade..tp mamat nih..cam penah kantoi gak usha dier..huhu..bertentang mata ko..hahah..:)) time nih mmg xpenah missed gi training..haahha..:)) tp mmg cute giler arr..lg2 arr ngan black belt dier tuh..lg arr attractive..ehehe..form 4 gak..ade lg sorang..mamat nih..erm...dier putih2..muke jambu gile arr..dak rugby..tp dier nih lebih sket dr usha arr..hahaa..:)) ade gak arr kuar2..gi tgk movie...as a matter of fact..dier nih arr yg ajar aku gi cinema..uhuh..
then skang punyer plak...yg paling baru...xbaru sgt arr...dlu pon ade usha gak dier nih..dak yg masa form 3 tuh..dok tepi tingkap..eheh...aku rase...terer gak arr aku usha2 nih..mamat sorang nih..bole ke xperasan pon aku usha dier..siap xnak percaya bile aku cakap dlu2 aku usha dier..uhuh..buat ape aku nk tipu pon..ape2 pon..skang nih x yah usha2 da..kalu nk tgk..tgk jek..haahah..kengkadang malu2 plak dier..cute btol arr dier nih..:D eheheh.. really miss that cute little devil...skang nih..dier jek arr yg aku paling sayang...cepat2 arr sehat..nk sgt jumpe dier..uhuh...da arr tuh..abes...for now!
...loving you...
[11:40 AM]
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